As a child I dreamed of either being a teacher or a nurse. I played out these dreams in my parents garage where I would play "school" and then on alternate days play "doctor".
I am the youngest of 5 children. I was a surprise to my parents because all of my brothers and sisters were pretty much grown up when I was born. I spent a lot of time playing alone (with my imaginary friend Ruby) and promising myself that when I grew up and had kids of my own they would not have to play alone. They would have each other to play with not an imaginary friend.
Well, when I grew up things went as planned. I married very young and had three children in three years. It seemed my dreams of becoming a teacher or a nurse were just not in the plans for me. I stayed home with my kids doing all of the good mommy things. I even became president of the PTA at my kids school. I stayed very busy but I felt an emptiness. It was like God was calling me to do something else. As if being a mom to three kids was not enough!
I decided to go back to school. I took one class at a time. That calling from God just kept getting stronger and stronger. Eventually, he led me to the University of North Texas where I ended up going full time-while my kids were in elementary school and bit by bit I conquered the teaching program, passed the tests and became what God had led me to be-a TEACHER!
My journey as a teacher started at Hedrick Elementary in Lewisville, Texas. In a portable with a group of hard to handle third graders. I was actually teaching at the school where my own kids attended. I was so excited! I couldn't believe my dream had finally come true......
Little did I know how unprepared I was for teaching my first class of third graders! By September I already felt like a failure. I wanted to just give up. Everything I tried seemed to have the opposite affect of what I planned or expected. I thought for sure I would be looking for a new job at the end of the year. I was given another chance to try to succeed in this Third Grade Journey. Each year I taught third grade I tried and retried new things. Each year I got a little bit better. This is not to say I didn't have terrible feelings of being inadequate. I just kept going to work everyday. I just kept trying. I just kept making relationships with those third graders. After 15 years of teaching only third graders I found it was time to move and start a new teaching position. I was scared and excited.
I thought maybe God would lead me to a different grade? I prayed every night and every day that I would find a good fit for my teaching experience. I went on countless interviews. Most of the time I was called back for second ones but then told were sorry we hired someone else. Then I walked into Watkins. I knew this was the place. I was really hoping to get a job in a different grade. I thought 15 years of Third Grade was enough. How could I have anything new to offer these kids?
I soon found out the challenge of teaching Dual Language Third Grade was just what I was looking for. I have already learned so much as a teacher at Watkins. I feel like I am one of the lucky ones. I get to go to work everyday and be totally challenged to use my experience and to always be ready to learn something new!
I guess the one thing I have learned from this Third Grade Journey is don't give up no matter how hard life seems. Try to start each day in a positive way. Be thankful for all you have and you just might be one of the lucky ones too.
Thanks for sharing your story! <3 that you are with us!
ReplyDeleteThanks for saying that Brenda. I love working with you on RTI. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are a fabulous teacher!
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